Get off of me!
There's no point in screaming it.
I know, that's why the words never leave my lips.
I feel his hands on my skin.
His tongue on my neck.
I feel sick inside and there is no escape.
That was almost eight years ago. My father, such a delightful man, used me. Now I'm seventeen years old and I'm faced with the same situation all over again. I'm scared. Hands shaking. I want to give up but im to proud for that. My whole life I've wondered about love. Wondered if.. Someone like me would ever have that. I was afraid that My father had stolen that ability right out of my grasp. Every boyfriend, every hug, every kiss, and every lingering touch. My dad was there. Stopping me, keeping me from ever having a normal relationship.
"Can I get you guys anything else?" I asked, half giggling. I was so nervous. This was my first time car hopping.
"Yeah, actually. Could you maybe get us a drink carrier?"
I nodded quickly and smiled. "Yeah, sure!" I said, eager to please. "I'll be right back."
I walked back inside the doors and quickly looked around for the drink trays. Stupid, I thought. This is stupid. They need a drink tray for two drinks? Really? They cant just hold them like everybody else? Nope, of course not.
"Joe! Do you know how to make these?" I handed him an unfolded drink tray and looked up at him with pleading eyes. "I havent learned how to make them yet."
He looked at me and laughed. "Yeah, sure."
Twenty seconds later I was rewarded with a folded drink tray ready to go.
"Thanks!"I said and smiled, then quickly went back out Sonics' front two glass doors.
Big smile, I told myself. No need to be scared. Their only teenage guys.
I glanced up to the stall numbers. Stall number seven greeted me on a large green pole. Next to that sat a little white car with two teenage guys inside waiting for me.
"Here you go!" I paused, "I made this for you." I smiled. "Anything else I can do for you guys?"
Please say no... please say no... I thought to myself as I looked at the all the cars that were waiting for their food.
"Yeah actually, Cody. My friend here.. wants your number."
Crap, didnt see that coming.
"Well... uhh..." Am i even allowed to give out my number? I wondered.
I glanced over Cody in the passenger seat while I bit my lip and thought seriously about his question.
How old was Cody? Like sixteen? Yeah, right. There is no way im giving him my number.
"Well, how bout you boys just come back out to sonic sometime and ask for me to take out your order? My name is Danielle."
I smiled big and started to turn back around in order to go inside.
The red head in the drivers seat smiled just as big and said, "Or you could just give us your number."
I giggled nervously. What do i do? I bit my lip some more.
I sighed, deciding that giving them my number was the quickest way to get back inside with out hurting any ones feelings. "Its Nine One Eight.. (Pause)... Eight Five One TwentySixtyFive." Then I turned on my heels and spun out of there with out another word. I didnt even wait to see if they got the number.
To Be Continued...
